The Good Patrons of 750 Words

1 cup

i’m very new to this site — well, not new, but a few months in. i’ve not been able to write consecutively for longer than five or six days — because of work and trips and the like — but every day i do, i’m glad i did.

i wake up with a lot of anxieties and thoughts colored by my depression. this site hasn’t cured anything – but it’s helped me start my mornings by putting all my feelings and thoughts on paper (screen) and seeing them. it keeps them from floating around in my head – and prevents them from gaining the strength they gather if they are allowed to reside solely in my head as i navigate my day to day life.

it’s almost as if 750 is a vault where i do my best to lock up bad thoughts. the ones that are harmful to me and my reality. they jump off the screen and some still stick to me, but more than ever, some are okay with staying contained.
sometimes those harmful, nasty little thoughts just like to be seen. and acknowledged. and they are on 750. and i think that makes those creepy crawly no good ideas of myself and the world happy.
they want attention like anything else, and i can do that here in a safe way.

so, it’s good.