The Good Patrons of 750 Words

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750words.com is an unwanted expense for me right now, (because I stopped working and my husband pays for me, not because it’s unreasonable) but it’s such an important part of my writing process.

I’m such a disorganized person and 750 Words keeps my writing organized, it lets me search for anything so I can put everything in a huge jumble and it will come out sorted by date, and searchable by subject, it’s private so I can write without being brave.

It gives me a reason to write, to see the graph, or just get a small sense of achievement that I finished the 750 word goal, even if it’s not part of a book or a financially successful blog, or even a solid topic.

I haven’t yet completed anything that makes me proud in life, I’ve lived by my values and done the right thing often, so I can look at myself, I can sleep at night, but I haven’t had the determination and organization to complete even one large project that meant anything to me personally. So, it’s hard for me to believe in myself that I ever will complete anything large, meaningful, difficult, I’ve faced the fact that I should start on tiny projects and build my skills, my confidence, and my momentum, but it’s a struggle everyday to fight the voice of inner doubt that says because I haven’t done anything major, I never will, or that whatever I do won’t matter, I don’t even know if it will matter in my most optimistic times, but I want to believe that not giving up matters irregardless of the project.

I want to believe it, because if I let go of that belief, I don’t have anything left to believe in, it’s the foundation for getting up when I fall and getting out of bed everyday and somehow 750 Words is one of the cornerstones upon which my life as a writer is built.